{Tossing On}

Well I'm NOT pregnant!!!

Seriously thought I was for the last 2 and a half weeks though. Man was that stressfull.

Feel like I have regressed back to High School again. An old school friend is organising our 20 year reunion in November and has plans well under way!!! The other night I had a call from another old friend asking if I knew about this reunion and about how out of joint her nose was because she was going to organise it and now she won't go or have anything to do with it blahhh blahhh blahhhh.

So there I am yet again playing the peace keeper trying to make everyone get along and not fight and offering to do things that I really really can't be stuffed doing just because that's the role I have always taken and probably always will!!

Saw my friend Pooh yesterday. I love you Pooh if you are reading this. Seeing you is like putting on an old glove that just feels warm and fuzzy and right!! So sad we live so far away from each other :( (Just as a note Pooh is not her real name:) )

Till next time....

Alive and Kicking

Hooly Dooly - its a long time between drinks.

Just a quick catch-up for now on what is happening in my life.

1) Work and family all well. Still haven't found the perfect balance but think this is something I will always struggle with.

2) Scrapping - haven't done any for months now. Started meeting with a small group on a Wednesday night so hopefully this will get my mojo going.

3) Kids are doing soccer and Ben is still doing basketball so trying to fit training and games around work and meals etc is a real battle. Ben really needs to do more exercise as he is basically a lazy kid who will easilly get a bit podgy if not doing regular sport (my genes I'm afraid LOL)

4) Have had a few sad things happen with friends and family that I won't post details about but suffice to say it has been keeping me busy emotionally and I just haven't had anything left to give to others in my life. Have neglected many people lately as a result and if you are one of them then know that I love you but have had to spend time healing others and myself. There is no truer saying sometimes than "There but for the grace of God go I"

5) Have finally worked out how to do this from work (um ahhhhh) Home computer is in the last stages of a long and lingering death. Will spend some time on the weekend if I can doing a heart transplant which may enable me to get online more but I don't know how it will go.

Snippits from the side lines....

Well I suppose I could crap on again about what a bad blogger I am and how I promise to keep it more up to date and so on but really - I think that would be a bit of a fib!!!

So this week I listed a house for a clairvoyant. And she asked me how long it would take to sell. I was so close to saying "Shouldn't you be telling me that" but she doesn't really know me that well yet!

Have added a map thingie on the side. For no reason than when I finally re-found the typepad page I wondered what the heck a widget was. Not what I was thinking that's for sure. I though they had something to do with the boy scouts and dib dib dobbing and lending a hand and bob a job. Seems either I was wrong (highly unlikely but it did happen once before) or language is changing.

Politically incorrect joke to follow:

What does DNA stand for?

National Dislexic Association.

I have a funny feeling I spelt that wrong but part of me thinks you will think I did it on purpose to make it seem funnier. A colleague told that joke today in the middle of a very serious meeting. Well none of our meetings are really that serious.

So life goes on. Things are well. Kids are good. Steven is great. Job is going well. Still trying to manage the mix between family and work and still having momentsof utter guilt and feeling overwhelmed by it all. Will try to get here more often.

Till next time....

Gone but not forgotten...

Have been MIA as I ran out of megabytes by the 10th of November last month. Did anyone notice????

Have decided I just don't get aaaarrrt. We went to a performance of a local youth dancing group last week that was "interpretive dance". Just didn't get it at all. To the point that I nearly started laughing out loud and couldn't look at Steven or I would have lost it totally. At one point we were sitting on toilets watching a girl writhe in a shower to weird music..... I just don't get it sometimes...

Christmas tree went up today. I am trying to not go and rearrange everything. Abbie put decorations on the tree based on who was friends with who. All the birds had to be close together but not near the train as they don't like trains. WTH????

Have been questioning blogging and Internet life in general lately as a few people probably have since "that blog" came and went. Makes you wonder how much of your personality comes across. Do you seem arrogant, cliquey with your posts, do you inadvertently ignore someone and hurt their feelings, do you put too much of yourself on the net and are you too invested in the communities you participate in???? All these questions and more are going through my head. If anyone has the answers please let me know.

Till next time....

B.A.N.A.N.A.S

Brought the kids 2 bananas each at the supermarket on Sunday and the man next to me grabbed his wife and said "look honey - that's a rich lady" LOL. $6.50 for 4 bananas. What a crock.

Walked passed the hottest guy the other day and our eyes connected as I was lugging an open home sign back to the car (NO NOT THE NEW ONE). "How're ya goin" he said.

"good goo" I replied.

WTF. GOOD GOO! Glad I'm not single anymore. I really know how to impress the hotties.

Achievements: Sold two houses. Passed my performance appraisal at work.

Till next time....

Magic Eight Balls

Have you ever wished that they worked???

How easy would decisions be if it was all based on the shake of a ball! Will I wear that dress? Shake and the answer appears. Will I buy that car? Shakey Shakey!!!

Every day in my job I am faced with people making some of the most important decisions of their lives.

Sometimes these are through a death, sometimes through a new arrival, sometimes from divorce and sometimes from a downturn of funds.

Whatever the reason it is quite humbling to be a part of this process and see the range of emotions they go through. Fear, happiness, trepidation and more I see on a daily basis (and that's just from my colleagues some days LOL)

That being said there are times I wish I could just grab the little fuckers around the throat and force them to buy a house or list with me - but the urge passes - gradually......

Update No sign of the car. Mine came out of plastic surgery OK.

Achievements Have apparently made a florist in Hinchinbrook cry because she can't run her business properly.

Thought to Ponder What if you were traveling in your car at the speed of light and you turned on your headlights - what would happen????

Scream!!!!!!

Have you ever had an experience that you wish you could just wipe from your memory and never have happen again?

Have you ever dealt with someone on any level and whilst you know that you are a normal, reasonably intelligent human being your dealings with this person have been one huge fuck up and you just get deeper and deeper into crap and look like a no hoper????

Ahhhh have I got a tale for you!!

So we decide (well I nag and harp for 2 months, throw temper tantrums and make even more promises I am never going to keep) to get a new car. Big step for us. Never had a "new" new car before so it is a bit exciting and a bit scary.

We start looking around car yards. Taking some for test drives. Getting known in the local car buying scene (bit like when we painted our hallway and we got so many sample pots that the man at the paint shop knew us by name and rolled his eyes every time we went in) and generally wasting the time of many hard working sales people.

After 1 month we narrow it down to a Mitsubishi Lancer Wagon and we start dealing with M at the local Mitsubishi dealership.

M asks me if we have any land for sale at work, couple of acres, 20 minutes from he city. Think he is toking my chain so I do the old "Will look on the books and if anything comes up will let you know right away" routine. Mistake number 1 - Joey from my office sells him some land the following week that was already on the books I just didn't do my job properly and now look like I don't know what I am doing to the car sales man.

Narrow it down to two cars. A second hand one with all the features we want but without the warranties etc of a new one or a brand new one but doesn't have some of the features we want and are too scummy to pay any more money. M offers us a good trade in price on my car. Hesitate for a couple of days. M knocks $500.00 more off the already low price he is offering on either deal. Hesitate and hedge for another day. Decide to buy the 2nd hand one and M rings to tell us it is sold.

Well that decision was made for us. Yes please M we will take a red new one!!!!

M rings and says the red new one he was going to sell us sold the day before we made up our minds and there were no more in the country. Would have to wait about 3 weeks for it to arrive or we could pick another colour.

No thanks M we are happy to wait for the red one!!!! (famous last words)

So 1.5 weeks later and no calls from M. Have client in the office and go to drive her to see a property at Legana. Get in the car together and mine won't start!!!!!!

Steven (who is NOT mechanically minded) comes in from his work to look at it. Lifts the bonnet and stares for a while. Fiddles with some lead things. Stares some more and declares that he doesn't know what is wrong with it. No shit sherlock. Worry that it will not be good for my image to be seen bitch slapping my husband up the main street of Launceston so refrain with great effort from doing so.

Take the car to local mechanic and ring M to tell the sad tale. He kindly gives a loan car until mine is on the road again.

Car is fixed. $270.00. Not too bad really for a new fuel pump. Take back the loan car. Load up the kids and all my crap. Leave the mechanics and hit a pole and rip 1/2 my front bumper off my car.

After many many tears and recriminations (and that was just Steven LOL) we now have a car that is wrecked (but with an A class fuel pump) a car on the way that will probably get sunk by a freaking iceberg in Bass Strait, an argument that it still raging about how I was off with the fairies and how the hell am I going to be able to drive a new car properly and a very very fragile Sally!

Oh and to make it worse - driving home with my bumper hanging off and I pass Joey who immediately rings to take the piss out of me and find out that M lives about 10 houses away and I see him out walking with his family as I drive past.

Till next time.....       

Twaddle

Favourite Words This Week: Twaddle, Naff and Tickety Boo.

Useless thought for the Week: Are icebergs salty? And has anyone ever licked one to find out?

Healthy Goal for the Week: To expand my healthy eating to be beyond a single sitting.

Mothering Goal for the Week: To not purposely try to gross kids out by kissing DH in front of them. Feel this could lead to potential relationship problems in their future.

Career Goal for the Week: Sell baby. And Sell some more!!!!! Oh and not to get any more parking tickets. I'm sure the little bastard knows my car by now and just targets me!!!!

Money Goal for the Week: Work out how to buy a whole new summer wardrobe without leaving a paper trail or have DH question if what I am wearing is new. This will be very hard for a trickster like me to achieve and will need some careful forward planning.

Relationship Goal for the Week: I will not roll my eyes every time I see DH do pretend air golf shots or pretend putting shots as he goes about his day to day tasks. Will no say out loud "God you look like a tosser when you do that" or "Do you really think that it helps your game" or other such non supportive comments.

Wish me luck.

Till next time.....

Slack Tart

If I ever start creating a scrapping kit then I think this is what I would call it!!!

I have 3 circle journals on my desk to do. Recipe cards - I don't even know where I am with them. Pooh had her baby about 6 weeks ago and I haven't even mailed off her present yet (welcome to the world Ella Rose Pooh)!

Housework - I think I need a cleaner. Steven will froth at the mouth as soon as I mention it but it might be worth it for the side show any way LOL.....

We have finally decided on a car and will pick up a brand NEW lancer wagon on Wednesday. We have never had a brand new car before so it is a bit exciting and scary. I can claim it as an asset purchase with work so there are tax benefits at least. Not that I understand them but apparently they are there.

It is school holiday time so we are playing pass the kids between us, grandparents and friends. At least we haven't had to use any holiday programs this time but Summer holidays will be more difficult to manage.

Haven't even started my Christmas shopping yet and I am one of those annoying people who is usually finished by now!!!! Hooly Dooly it is getting closer and closer!

Have a great weekend - till next time...

Bully for you.

I hate bullying in any form with a passion. Be it abusive or subtle, mental or physical it makes me sick.

I have never been the victim of bullies before. Sure - being a Principal's daughter in a small town made me a target but I have always been strong enough to not give a shit or not let if effect me.

When I was in high school in grade 8 there was this girl who was a grade below me. Have you ever met someone who totally pushed all your wrong buttons and brought out the worst in you? Well this is what this girl did to me and my friend E.

We used to tease her a bit in the locker room. Make it hard for her to get to her locker. Giggle loudly as she walked past us in the hallway. Nothing too strong as far as bullying goes but enough to make her avoid contact with us as much as she could.

I had never previously behaved this way towards another person in my life and I can not explain the rationale behind my actions. This girl was in reality quite nice, a bit of an oddball but a nice person.

Well we went away to camp in third term and when we arrived back we found out this girl had had a massive asthma attack in her home and had died.

I can't explain the way this made me feel. But it has shaped the way I treat other people on so many levels.

Why this post about it all of a sudden? Well Dad told me on Thursday that her younger brother, who had never really got over her death, had committed suicide last week. He is buried next to his sister in a quiet country cemetery.

A family forever in my memories who will probably never know that other people still mourn the loss of their daughter and sister.

Till next time....